Okay , thr's one post i would i like t write it here .
it was suppose t be ytd night de .
But i didnt write , so i shall write it now .

I dont know what t do .
I wanna have a good sleep & forget bout everything , bit i just cant seem t close my eyes.
Everytime i do , i think bout thoughts i dont want t think of .
Just now went out with my parents .
I really am very sleepy . But i cannot sleeeeep .
Then was smsing jiejie . Halfway she said she wanna go sleep .
Den sms brendon , he woke up alr .
aft a while i received andrew's msg .
I dontwant t see . but i clicked on it .
cos i didnt see th name , nvm then .
Then he said things lahs .
I donno what t reply , so keep saying okay or whtever .
Until now , my thoughts are running really wild .
I dontknow why i cannot just forget bout everything .
I tried running on th tread mill on a very fast speed .
Together with th fast music , running seriously fast beating t th music .
Still , those thoughts were still on my mind .
I know i have attitude problem . We seemed t have drifted .
This time , im afraid i would lose you , not th opposite way anymore .

Today's really not my day .
I had a typo message tht was suppose t be sent t brendon .
When he told me , i still had no clue bout it , until late at night .
I nearly had a fight with my parents just because of my damn attitude .
My father asked me why i so not happy , keep going out of th earth .
My mother asked me why i look so shaq .
All i replied was , nothing wrong .
I cannot possibly tell them , i not happy lah -.-!
I tried t cover my feelings alr , still i donno why its so obvious .
Sigh , i find this world , no one can understand how i feel .
Even th closest kin on earth , would soon be a stranger in my life .

How i wished i was a small little girl , who knew nothing bout love .
How i wished i was a small little girl , who need not have any troubles .
How i wished i was a small little girl , who just needs t enjoy its childhood ...


Thts th post for ytd .
Todays post below .

Actually , i was feeling much better this morning .
Then recieved honeystead's message , saying she broke off with kenneth on sat .
But patched back ytd .
Sigh . Why are thr so many breaks in july .
First period was chinese . I slept 1&1/2 period .
Then when i woke up , at th position i was at , i could see my scars left on my hand th last time i slitted . Donno why i had an urge t do it again ._.
From tht moment , my mood went down again .
My feelings seems like a roller coaster yeahs .
Then , received msg from andrew .
He asked me if i was alright .
I told him i was fine . Also , i found out qianyu slitted -.-!?
So many somemore . Omg . I asked her why .
She said for fun ._. zzz .
Aft recess was sci . Had test .
Raaaahhs . So difficult . Then i fell asleep again .
Walao eh , i saw those scars again . though it wasnt so obvious .
Hai , i really wanna siao le lahs .
HIstory teacher come in , teach us , then talked bout emo -.-!??!?!
Ohmygod . Nvm .

I really do hope i'll be alright aft this post .
I hope i'll forget everything aft this post .
I hope this would be th last post bout this .
I really dont wish t write such shit things anymore .